Tuesday, 19 January 2010

Good News This Week

I'm really pleased this week, for a few reasons.
1. I've made contact with a couple of old work mates I hadn't seen for a year. On Saturday it was really great to get a few texts from Susan, and then I thought, I wonder if Christine is on Facebook? You've guessed, yes she was and I got a really lovely message yesterday from her. Hopefully over the next few weeks we will all meet up. Most of the time I feel "why would old friends still want to see me?" They and their husbands are accepting of what I'm going through, it is a nice feeling.

2. Finacially things having taking a great turn, I recieved some money for royalties, which I worked on 12 years ago. This has enabled me to put my emergency fund back to where it was a year ago, I was getting stressed not having a cushion of money, and having to rely on my parents. It be quite degrading to ask for money help, although my parents have been to awesome and have helped me so much, but I do like to be independant. Also, for the next 2 years I know I will recieve benefits, I find it hard to think as myself as disabled. Although I know I would have problems with work, due to my depression and anxiety problems, let alone gender, I hate mental illness stigma, and I don't think my gender issues are mental illness, it's all very complicated.

3. Well, I was bad, in a good way, I love gadgets and had really behaved myself over the last few years. On Sunday I ordered a new flat-screen television, I got it at a superb price and well I wasn't expecting to have the spare cash, so I did it. My life has changed so much from a few years ago, I use to be out pubbing and clubbing alot, spending too much, now I don't my entertainment is at home. So I nice television will be fabby for the sport, concerts and documentries I watch.

4. Hair removal is really coming along nicely, just a small bit on my chin to clear, and then it's serious time on my upper lip. This will be rather painful, but no pain, no gain, and it's great to be getting away from the same area. We have been doing the odd hair on the lip, it doesn't seem to dense, hopefully perhaps a few months will clear it.

So all in all a nice week so far, and after a ropey start to the year, it certainly has picked up. I know I have to keep pushing myself and have been considering doing some therapy again, as the build up of stress at Christmas wasn't really very good. Need to watch this happening again, when I am thinking about it I think I need just to tell someone what I'm thinking in a controlled situation again. Going to give it a few weeks and see how things are. Remember, anyone who actaully ever reads this, can drop me a message anytime.

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